IT'S NOT A GOODBYE WHEN YOU GO TO A BETTER PLACE...

I've been having a clear out in my bedroom and I'm selling some of the clothes I no longer wear, out with the old and in with the new and all that jazz - or in my case out with the old and in with the food in the fridge! I do like clearing out my wardrobes and my drawers, makes me feel all refreshed! So rather than my unwanted clothes either sitting in a charity bag by the door for months on end I thought I'd send them to new homes so they can be played with properly...

These New Look shorts - ebay.

Abandoned ship apparel leggings - Ebay.

These forever 21 lace shorts - Ebay.

Forever 21 shorts - Ebay.

Forever 21 shorts - Ebay.

I'm also selling a few more items at the moment and will be selling a few more as the weeks go on... Check out all my items here, the most expensive thing I've put up is £5.99 so you're getting a total bargain!

INSTA-TUESDAY #3

Where the hell is the time going? Last week FLEW by!! It went so quick, I don't even remember what I got up too - obviously not a lot.

I really want to thank everyone that got in touch with me about my last post. All your support and kind words really means a hell of a lot and I can't help but feel uplifted and loved after reading some of messages I received. I really am grateful, so a massive THANK YOU! There is some wonderful and lovely people in this big big world of ours.

Here's another Insta-Tuesday feature, I haven't done one in a while (oops!) I've been a naughty girl and went over my Internet on my phone so for a few weeks I didn't go on instagram at all - that was REALLY tough to do! So here's a few of the pictures I've put up since my last post...

Kate and I have fallen head over heels with stir fry at the moment! With it being incredibly easy to cook its one of our fave meals, I also can't not mention our love for Tuna Pasta Bake - We eat ALOT of Tuna Pasta Bake!!

OH TGI'S HOW I LOVE THEE, OH STEAK HOW I LOVE THEE! Mark treated us to a yummy steak one Friday night at Tgi's (such a babe)

Finally snapped a picture of my birthday present from my brother! Thanks Greg, still loving it!!

Went out on Friday night with some amazing people! My brother the little babe paid for my night out as I'm incredibly skint at the moment :(

Speaking of my brother... Nice face there Greg!

My two favourite things in the world...

I've been suffering with really bad swollen knee's lately. No idea why, but both of them have been a nightmare for about 5-6 weeks now, it finally started to get better and Sunday at work I tripped over a dress - resulting in this happening. OUCH!!

I've also really been considering video posts on my blog or creating a youtube channel. I've been looking into all the posts I can do and getting ideas together so hopefully that will be something new you'll be seeing soon on here! I'm so excited to get started!! If you do a youtube channel or have done vlogs yourself send me your links or let me know how you find it? I'm awfully nervous just about where to start...

SPILLING OUT EMOTION AND SHAVING MY HAIR, IS THAT NORMAL?

Image from my Instagram

Since doing this post in August last year about my depression I've felt it a lot more easier to talk about what's going on in real life rather than just posting about the good things. We all go through things every single day, life isn't a Disney film all the time and there's always someone out there who can relate to you in some way. I know blogging about these sorts of things is a little controversial to some people but I feel like it helps me a lot, and surely that's a good thing!

I've not really been in a good place the past few weeks. I've been very down, since buying Ina Circle money has become really tight and it's a massive struggle at the moment. Putting a strain on pretty much everything in my life, I'm working 7 days a week at the moment between Ina Circle and Forever 21 and I'm exhausted, but it's got to be done. This is life as a grown up! It's really hard for the both of us and we just have to plod along until we get ourselves sorted.

I have amazing people around who are supporting me and keeping a smile on my face! which I'm incredibly grateful for.

Yesterday I kind of... I don't really know how to explain why I did it but I shaved my head. A little. I've loved this look for a while now but never been brave enough to do it and I've always thought it was too "hardcore" for me. I think with feeling all over the place with how I look and how I feel lately I just wanted to fuck it all and do it. So I did. I went back to my boyfriends house and after hardly no persuasion at all got him to shave my head, it was hilarious!!

Image from my Instagram

I don't think I've ever done something so spontaneous with my appearance in all my life! I'm glad I did it and I LOVE IT!! As to why I did it I think it was just something I had control over (healthier than bulimia right?). It is pretty fucked up I guess but it's only hair, it can grow back. For now it's something that's made me feel a little better about myself and that's definitely a good thing. As for all the other shit stuff going on, something good will happen eventually, I'm sure of it. Just got to remain positive!

I'LL TAKE CARE OF YOU... A PLEDGE TO MY FACE.

I think this sort of post is something of a first for me... I don't think I've ever spoken about my skincare regime before? I've only dipped my toes into the "make up" world of blogging briefly when writing about new make up purchases or make overs that I've had done.

I never used to bother with looking after my skin too much when I was a teenager. I'd take my make up off with make up remover wipes and that would be it, none of this cleanse or toning business. Obviously once hitting my late teens when I started learning more about make up and getting more interested in beauty products, and not forgetting the other stuff like consuming alcohol and curing hangovers with countless burgers from McDonalds, my skin became rather spotty. Fortunately I have never had an issue with acne but I did used to have 2 or 3 spots that would never go away, either that or they just packed their suitcases and took another holiday somewhere else on the island of Sian's Face!

The past two years or so I would say my skin has been at it's best, but these past few months no matter what products I use I have had really bad problem areas. My nose has been the biggest problem area. Last year I had big trouble with it becoming swollen and really tender, it wasn't spotty as such it was just really red, itchy and shiny ALL the time! No matter what I used it just didn't go down, and it started spreading across my face and my cheeks became very dry and irritable. After visiting the chemist and trying countless calming creams with none of them really working I didn't know what on earth was going on. I couldn't not wear make up out of pure embarrassment really, which is a little silly as it was definitely making it worse but it was something I was very conscious of. Once it calmed down I used to just skip my nose when putting foundation on and it helped a little, I'd gone and brought higher end make up, skincare products and I thought maybe it was my foundation that was causing it - I was using either Estee Lauder double wear or Rimmel Match Perfect Foundation. I found that wearing the Double Wear everyday dried my skin out and the Match Perfect was in fact the foundation that was causing this problem. I went to boots and spoke to the lady on the Max Factor counter (this was just before Christmas) and she was wonderful! She told me that all the products I had been using, including my moisturiser was too rich for my skin, it was causing my skin to react the way it was all this time. I was looking at their Foundation range when she walked over to me and once telling her all the problems I'd had she told me about their Face Finity All Day Flawless foundation with it being a 3 in 1 kinda thing I thought it was brilliant, as a) I'm really lazy so don't always bother with moisturiser and primer before hand and b) hey I'm getting all this shiz for the price of one thing! As well as advising me on the Max Factor products she took me over to the cleansers and toners and went through all the ones that would be perfect for me and wouldn't be too rich for my skin. I walked out of there a VERY happy girl! Every time I go back into that boots I always look out for her, feel like she's my personal shopper now, she was such a babe!!

ANYWAY (ranting a little here) recently I've started having a huge problem with certain areas around my face, it's right down the centre of my face, so my forehead, nose and chin. It's became very spotty (like REALLY bad, we're talking a neighbourhood of spots here not just one chilling with his mate) I don't have a clue what has caused it this time as I wasn't using any new products I wasn't doing anything out the ordinary. AND THEN... I'd ran out of my Max Factor foundation and just haven't had the funds to buy replacements so I had to wack out the double wear and rimmel... ah oh!! Yes my skin has gone MAD!!! Yesterday I bombed it over to boots on a mission and restocked on a few things as well as making two new purchases.

I've always used boots own cleansing wipes, these ones I feel leave my face feeling really refreshed and as I have sensitive skin their perfect and not to mention cheap. These were on offer for 3 for £3. Now I've moved out and having recently just brought a business cheap deals are the best thing since sliced bread!

I still haven't found the perfect skincare regime and moisturiser is one thing I really struggle with. Some I just feel are too heavy, some leave my skin really greasy and others I find the perfume in them make my skin all saw and stiff (if that makes sense?) So the boots simply sensitive range seems a little perfect right? Well we'll give it a bash and see how I get on with that, so far so good. I used it this morning and it felt really good when putting it on, it was rather a thick consistency so it's not like you need a big dollop of the stuff, it went on really smooth and it felt like it sunk into my skin (lol if that's what it does) really quickly.

I also picked up this 3 - minute clay mask. Apart from my everyday routine I don't do anything else to my skin, so I thought it may be best to try one of these out, and as it was on offer for £1.50 why on earth not give it a go eh?

LOL!! Had to be done!

I really hope some of this goes towards making my skin a little better. It was so bad at one point I didn't want to leave the house, yes that sounds so ridiculous but I just felt so embarrassed! Fingers crossed! wow this post is REALLY word heavy. oops!